Tonight hit me. We were rehearsing the second act, and it's like I didn't prepare myself for the Roman/Daja scene; or even just brushed it off, and when it happened I almost broke into tears. For that small minute, it was all too much.
I had talked about the scene with both Andre (Roman) and LaToya (Daja) both last night and before tonight's rehearsal; but something was a big deal tonight. I held it together and pushed through. When the work created is even loosely based on your life, it still has these moments of ringing truth that I just have to sit with sometimes. I have to move past the "Should I even do this?" and "What if I tell it?" mind mazes that get me caught up sometimes. I turned to the work. I had to listen to what the work itself is calling for, and made that the focus instead of how the moment was affecting me. We worked on some different choices with both characters and I really like what they brought to the scene.
All of it has been a lot of work. Mentally, emotionally, spiritually, and even physically. Mainly because I need to do this. This work needs to be out in the world; it needs to be told. I need to tell it. I want to tell it.
I got a chance to see some of the footage from last night's behind-the-scene recording; I smile when I see the cast working so hard and improving. It's a good feeling. This Saturday, we go over the 1st and 2nd Acts. Tomorrow, I'll be relatively low-key and prepare for Saturday.
As busy as you are, I hope you have also been following this week's news... It's rocking the Vatican and what's left of the status quo. Great coverage on public radio. You and "Firstborn" are part of the zeitgeist. Lisa
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