The last few days have been intense emotionally. We begin Act II this week, and just like when Firstborn was a screenplay, there's a moment in the story that is difficult for me personally. Having to look at anyone being groomed for violation is a challenge. And having actually been through it is another thing.
When I think about the man who violated me and I get so angry about it, there's another thing there; there's the deep love and trust that I had extended to him. Mind you I was a child, but it's the betrayal that I didn't see coming that hurts.
Then, on top of that, as I share my story with others I find out this horrific number of people who have endured something similar. I hear about all these violators who have been violated themselves; and some days it's all too much. It gets muddy and confusing because we all need so much healing and love. We need to be protected, our children need to be protected.
I look at this society and become disgusted with the consent and expectation of exploitation; rich exploit the poor, predators exploit the innocent, those in positions of power exploit the unorganized. I hear so many times that "That's the way it goes..."
But what if it could be different? What if we could do something different? What if we all worked towards something better? More loving, more humane? It's worth it. It's worth it to love, to heal, to become the best people that we can possibly be.
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